It took me a while to come in terms with how I looked like. It’s challenging to be fully comfortable with my appearance. I’m just glad that I am getting there somehow. If you have met me in person, it is quite noticeable that I appear to be on the heavier and broad body type, which would fall into an overweight and obese classification. In simpler terms, I am plus-sized. It is quite the insecurity for a long while, especially the bloaty abdominal part that makes me look like someone five months pregnant. I also had a very tan skin and chicken-skin spotty arms, which are also some lesser insecurities of mine. With that, I hated posing in cameras (unless for selfies where it’s only my face they see). I hated doing or being on videos. I always felt like I look like a blob. I don’t smile often because I don’t feel good with my teeth, I use filters to lighten my complexion. I used to get annoyed when people points out or comments even just little things about my physique or my “chubbiness”,...
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